In the French, tu me manques –
you are missing to me.
You are missing to me,
to my body, to my arms
which starve on air,
to my eyes which dream up
the shape of you in everything.
You are missing
to my fingertips and the roots
of my hair, to my toes,
to my wrists, to my teeth.
Your lungs are missing
to my lungs
which inflate miserably
like half-hearted
hot air balloons
without your scent
to fill them up. Your lips
are missing to my lips,
to my arid tongue
which withers without
the oases of your kisses.
Each pore reaches for you,
each particle widening
in your direction until
my body is nothing but
an outstretched shell –
I need to unmake this missing,
this absence which soaks me
like some opaque paint,
grounding me here
with the thick iron bells
it has hung on my heart.